Winter’s Victim Chapter 68
Loki went straight to Thor once he got back to Asgard. There was something going on here and he wanted, needed, to know what.
Thor and Odin were in the throne room, talking when Loki burst into the room. They looked up at him and saw that he was angry enough to kill.
“Did you have another fight with Queen Vara?” Thor asked his brother smiling as he walked up to him.
“Yes, no… sort of.” He said, stopping in front of Thor.
“I saw her children.” Loki said, looking at Thor and then to Odin.
“Both of them.” he said, hoping that his subtle hint would crack them, but it didn’t. He sighed; he needed to be more direct.
“Yes, so?” Odin asked, standing up from his chair and walking over to Thor and Loki.
“So, you know exactly what I saw when I looked into the face of that little… Isa.” He said to Thor, using her name for the first time.
Thor hung his head and sighed. Loki had figured it out. Ten years on and it was all for nothing.
“Why can’t I remember having children with her?” Loki asked looking to Thor and then Odin.
“Where would you get that idea from?” Odin asked him, trying to lie to him again.
“Princess Isa looks just like me. And she can manipulate ice, just like I can.” He said to Odin, stepping past Thor and up to Odin.
“She is part Frost Giant. And there is only one Frost Giant that could sleep with Vara and not kill her in the process.” Loki said, thinking the way he always had, one step ahead of everyone else.
Odin looked to Thor who had turned to face them. Thor nodded to Odin, telling him that it was time to tell Loki the truth. Odin sighed and looked at back at Loki.
“You and Vara were once married and you had two children with her. Eldur, the blue dragon and Isa, the heiress to the throne of Muspelheim.” Odin said to Loki, beginning to tell him what had been kept from him all these years.
Loki nodded, taking in the information. Not only were he and Vara lovers, they are also married. But why couldn’t he remember anything.
“Why can’t I remember anything?” he asked Odin softly.
“Vara asked me to wipe out all you memories pertaining to her, so you would not run away to Muspelheim. So you would stay here, where we could keep an eye on you.” Odin explained to him the painful moment when Vara had made that decision.
“Why?” Loki asked, his heart breaking for someone he didn’t know in his head, but clearly his heart had known her all along.
“She said that she didn’t want to leave you hurting, so if she never existed to you, you wouldn’t hurt.” Odin explained to his son sincerely.
That didn’t make sense to Loki at all. He frowned and looked at Odin, his mind in overdrive again.
“Why would she think I would hurt?” he asked Odin.
Thor stepped up beside him and put his hand on his shoulder. Loki looked to his left and at Thor.
“She wanted to stay with you. She truly did. But that would have left Muspelheim without a leader.” Thor said looking to Odin, who nodded to him to tell Loki the whole story. Thor knew that Loki would hate him for this, but it was the right thing to do.
“I wanted to forge an alliance with Vara. A permanent one. I was planning to have a child with her. A child with my and her bloodline and that child could be the next king or queen of Muspelheim.” Thor said softly to his brother.
“Whereby insuring peace and preventing Ragnarök.” Loki completed his thinking and looked at him.
“Did you?” Loki asked Thor.
Thor shook his head and looked at Loki.
“She refused and went back to Muspelheim to lead her people herself.” Thor said to him.
“She said that she couldn’t hurt you that much.” He added, squeezing Loki’s shoulder lightly.
Loki nodded to him. It was a lot to take in, but he was keeping up so far.
“How many years ago was this?” Loki asked, looking down at the ground, hanging his head.
“A decade, brother.” Thor said to him.
Loki looked up at him with shock evident on his face. All this time, he had known something was wrong. All this time he had a hole in his heart that had been ripped out, and nothing could replace his family, no matter how hard he tried.
“So for the past 10 years, I’ve been living here, in a web of lies made to protect me from hurt when all she’s been doing is hurting?” Loki asked them and they both nodded sadly to him.
“I’ve never heard of anyone taking on pain to spare another.” Loki said, thinking, looking at the ground.
“She loved you, and she would do anything to make sure you were safe and happy. Even if it meant leaving you and making me cast a spell on you to forget about her.” Odin explained to him, reaching out and placing his hand on Loki’s free shoulder, squeezing slightly.
“I know nothing about her.” Loki said sadly, thinking about how wonderful it must have been to live with that wit and intelligence day to day.
He looked up at his brother and father.
“I don’t even know if I loved her.” Loki said sadly and softly.
“You broke out the dungeons to get to her and Eldur in Muspelheim. Then when I came to bring you back, she broke into Asgard and came to rescue you.” Thor said to him, putting in a quick nutshell the lengths they had gone to, to be together.
“And?” Loki asked him, wanting to know more.
“You could have left with her and Eldur, but you stayed here, to stop sanctions being put on Muspelheim.” Thor said, looking at Odin.
“You stayed to save her.” Odin said to him, smiling.
“So we both did stupid things to save the other.” Loki said, chuckling at how dense love made him sound.
They heard footsteps behind them, and Loki and Thor turned to see Frigga walking in and up to them.
“We all do stupid things for the ones we love.” She smiled at Loki and took hold of his hand.
“I don’t even know where to start to win her back.” Loki said, looking to meet his mother’s eyes.
“Forget about it and about her.” Thor said to him.
Loki turned and looked at Thor and frowned. Surely now that he knew, he had to get back to that place where he and Vara and the children were a family again.
“We have been living the past ten years in peace and that will continue.” Thor said to him, putting on his serious business mask now.
“You won’t be allowed to go back to live with her on Muspelheim and she won’t be allowed to come here.” Thor added, despite his parent’s glaring eyes.
“At least not until the girl is old enough to take the throne.” Thor said, looking to Odin and Frigga.
They had grown tired of all the lies, surely, they thought, Thor had too, but they forgot that Thor had a kingdom to think about now.
“And even then, Vara might not want to come back.” Thor said, looking at Loki.
“Why?” Loki asked him, frowning.
Why would she not what to get out of Muspelheim. She had called it a hell hole once or twice.
“Why?” Loki asked him again.
“She might have moved on.” Thor said to him, knowing full well that Vara hadn’t moved on.
Her heart would always belong to Loki. Loki thought back and remembered her wearing a ring on her finger. She had moved on.
“She has.” Loki said, looking at the ground.
“She was wearing a ring every time I met with her. It’s silver with a blue stone in the centre.
“She’s married another. I saw the ring with my own eyes.” he said sadly looking at Thor.
Odin sighed held out his had. With his magic, he recalled Loki’s ring from the bottom of the ocean. The silver filigree ring appeared in his palm and he looked at Loki.
“Did it look similar to this?” Odin asked Loki and Loki nodded.
He reached over and took the ring in his fingers and lifted it to get a better look at it.
“Yes. Where did you get a copy?” Loki asked, looking at Odin.
“This is your wedding ring, Loki.” Frigga said, hugging him side on.
“But, we don’t wear rings.” Loki said, remembering his previous two marriages.
“True, but you asked me to make this one, saying that this would be your last wedding.” She said to him, copying his words exactly.
“And if Vara is still wearing the matching one, then she still loves you.” She smiled at Loki, giving him permission to go after her.
Loki smiled suddenly and turned and walked to the door. He was going after her and he was going to win her back.
“Brother!” Thor called out after him.
Loki turned and looked at him.
“The deal still stands. You will not be allowed to leave Asgard and she won’t be allowed here.” Thor said to him, walking up to Loki.
Loki sighed and walked up to Thor.
“Please be lenient brother.” Loki began to plead his case to Thor.
“At very least, I want to know my children.” He said, looking at Thor and putting on the brotherly charm he had always used when they were children.
“Oh, just go.” Frigga said to Loki from behind Thor.
Thor turned and looked at her, giving Loki time to get away. Loki blew her a kiss and then he rushed off to the Bifrost.
“Mother, what have you done?” Thor asked, walking up to her.
“I have sat back and watched the three of you dance around the laws for too long.” She smiled at Thor.
“Loki and Vara deserve to be happy.” She said, looking to Odin and then to Thor.
“And we all know Loki hasn’t been happy without her.” she said, looking at the two of them again.
“Whether he can remember her or not, she owns his heart.” She said, walking past Thor and towards the door.
“And besides, I want to meet my grand children.” She said, not turning back to look at them again.
“That would be wonderful.” Odin said, shrugging.
Thor looked at him in disbelief.
“Sometimes a king needs to be able to right the wrongs and accept that he was wrong.” Odin said, putting his hand on Thor’s shoulder.
“Don’t keep them apart a second longer. Please Thor. Your brother has waited long enough to be happy.” Odin said to Thor, before walking out after Frigga.
Maybe he was right, maybe he should grant them happiness, like he promised he would do on their wedding day.